My wife, Shirley, died suddenly of cancer, in the spring of 2022. Since then I have been struggling uphill. My cycling blog became a therapeutic journal. Where I recorded my recovery from the shock of my loss. The house and garden need a lot of work. So much of the text and images are now about my "improvements." My purchase of a "Speed" e-bike transformed my cycling after I passed 75. More recently I have had heart problems. Four stents have given me a new lease of life.